I expect some resistance to that title. What fuels your faith? Worship? Study? Service? Nature?
...but consider the Gospel story known as “the healing of a boy with an evil spirit.” (Mark 9:14-32) The child’s father exclaimed to Christ: I believe; help my unbelief! (RSV) I appreciate the paradox.
Gerard Kelly, writing for Scripture Union, contends that our doubts are not an enemy of faith “if we turn them into fuel for prayer.”
I will follow his lead:
I sense your grace with my doubts and confusion. You are most likely tolerating some misguided theology, too. I am grateful.
It resonates with me…
…that we read - in the Bible’s very first book - a description of Jacob wrestling with God. (Genesis 32:24-30)
…that the disciples often missed the point of your teaching. (Matthew 15:16)
…that the father who sought your healing touch for his disabled child proclaimed, I do believe, help me overcome my unbelief! (Mark 9:24)
That’s me. Wrestling. Missing the point. Questioning.
But this doubt is fuel for my faith. Praise God for that!
I’m unable to master the Bible. Let the Bible master me.
I can’t seem to advance a tight and tidy apologetic. Let me advance the faith through worship and service, through conduct and character.
Some seekers walk away in frustration. They want a formula or indisputable evidence.
Thank you, Holy Spirit, that my heart and mind are fully engaged by the Kingdom’s mystery. Continue to fuel my faith. Amen.